I have left my job of almost 20 years to chase life. The trite version is "She had to go find herself" but the reality can't be reduced to "Just do it." I am on a path to find the spirit I never developed. The pain in the transformation and the decision to bushwack new trails buries trite with a vengeance. The reality is ripping and tearing of family fabric and safety. Courage must make this upheaval worthwhile. No backsliding. Forward. Only forward.
To that end, I have committed myself to the Outdoor Leadership Program. People assume I am jumping toward adventures I already know and love. Fact is, my outdoor experience is shallow. Mortality stares at me and I do not want regret and resentment to be my legacy.
How will I feel when this year is completed? What will I have accomplished? Will I have overcome fear in its many forms? How will I have changed? How will I view myself differently than I do now? How well will I participate in life? What will come to me because I have pursued life rather than waited for life to show up? I have watched friends trust in life and I must now do the same or fear will hold me down and I'll likely do nothing. How will all of this change and learning impact my purposefulness in life? At what and where will I be employed and will I be able to support myself? All in good time. . . .
While I can, I choose to fully participate in life.
For the most part, pictures in this blog are taken by OLP students and will be credited when known.
To that end, I have committed myself to the Outdoor Leadership Program. People assume I am jumping toward adventures I already know and love. Fact is, my outdoor experience is shallow. Mortality stares at me and I do not want regret and resentment to be my legacy.
How will I feel when this year is completed? What will I have accomplished? Will I have overcome fear in its many forms? How will I have changed? How will I view myself differently than I do now? How well will I participate in life? What will come to me because I have pursued life rather than waited for life to show up? I have watched friends trust in life and I must now do the same or fear will hold me down and I'll likely do nothing. How will all of this change and learning impact my purposefulness in life? At what and where will I be employed and will I be able to support myself? All in good time. . . .
While I can, I choose to fully participate in life.
For the most part, pictures in this blog are taken by OLP students and will be credited when known.
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